had flu , cough , sneeze and sore throat . sorethroat-only wednesday .
the rest had been with me since wednesday till now .
my voice had became as low as a boy breaking voice or maybe lower than that?
i've really no mood to talk about stuffs that happened in the few days .

from now onwards , this blog is only for venting my anger and throwing all the stuffs that i want to forget or maybe some things i miss , what i wish , sad thing and not daily stuffs .

okay done . here . now it's time to start the real stuffs .
haha .

i've the same intention but not anymore . in the past , i change for you .
but it's not worth changing for you as i want a TRUE LOVE . which means no matter what am i ,what i do , what bad habits i have ,how i behave , you wouldn't mind . Now you're like controlling me ? NO ! you're not gonna able to do that . you always end up your speech with ' i don't patch with you uh . ' so , you think you're so 'famous ' ? even if you're ' famous ' ( in your mind), you shouldn't be so proud of yourself and don't think about other people's feeling . i'm not your dog ! i'm not a fool ! if you want me back , where's your prove ? where's your sincerity ? where's your love for me ? you obtain none , am i right ? i guess you just want a girlfriend for fun ! what a man ! ( who thinks that he was perfect ) - you're just ignorant .
i'm wanting a valentine for this year , i was thinking about you .But after those stuff you said infront of people , trying to embarrass me . how we broke up was also your fault ! you started it first and you actually cheated me as in , you have another girl in heart. oh , i really can't forgive you for that . you use me just to forget about her ? If you're my normal friend and you use me , it's alright . but you're my boyfriend (at that moment) , you use me instead of loving me . could that be acceptable ? imagine the one you love used you , what would you feel . I know i'm not up to standard , but that doesn't mean that i'm a fool ! i wonder why i dream about you and think about you .there's no love at all. i want mine but i guess , you threw it away .